This recent weeks has one of most grevious and confusing period I have ever experienced, frankly I am beginning to lose my sanity. I am not looking for sympathy, but like to hear those with similar experience to ways and how they dealt and coped with it; any other relavant advice is welcome.

A person who is very special to me  involved in a motorbike accident fractured some bones in her arms and legs (she was the passenger). I don't know how severe it is but as far as I know she is unable to  physically move and yet to get any treatments. The other motobike driver was at fault, the policemen was at the scene sided with the driver at fault, I suspected money was taking place.

I am constantly in a seethe ball of rage just wanting to fly down to Cambodia to kill that cops and that motorbike driver. I am her responsible and the only person she can turn to. I've sold valuable personal belongings to sort out the situation and some help from a fellow member.  The thought of her injuries and loneliness in this difficult time lead me to became agitated, self-rage, causing me to drown myself in liquor. The new semester is about to commence which I am not mentally prepare or have any motivation to continue, turning down and absent from part-time jobs, causing scenes....... I just wanted to escape, get up and leave to a far away place.

Hi n1985,

I am sorry to hear about what happened to your friend.

Please check your PM. 

Nick, this is Tim. This explains why you have been acting all weird recently, no worries mate keep your head high and be rational. Lawrie and Cel is still pretty upset I'm sure they'll get over it once they know your story. Come over my place for bbq this weekend. Hope to see you there.

Sorry to hear that n, there is nothing you can do about it, those who had money always got away with it...sad but reality bite...

Sorry to hear about your friend '85. I hope she will recover soon and it will not be too much of a drawn out process for her and for you.

That's a good start there...acknowledgement. Take some time to yourself or be with someone close by to ease the pain. Don't drown yourself in something that's "uncontrolable". I was once in love with someone on the other end of the world. She one days calls me in tears, "bong...bong, someone just pushed me down while I was driving my bike and he took my purse...". Like you, I was so enraged and wanted to raise hell on anything and everything that resembles evil between where I stood and the path to slicing his throat. I never killed anyone but I was at a point where I about lost it and wanted to hunt down this thief. I self destructed and finally gain my senses a week later. I realized there was nothing I can do except reach out with what I can...but phone and text messages to her..to promise her tommorrow would be a new day and things would be better.

In the mean time, I soughts friends and family here. I wrote and listen to music..active with outside activities just to lower my temper and rid the fire inside of me. Yes, I still to this day wish death upon that Mofo. I just hope to 1 day run into him in a dark alley. Just one day.

So my friend, be patient and do what it takes to heal, rather then lose your life in anger.

n1985

Sorry to hear this, pull your self back up and stand tall……I know it’s hard for you at this moment…….hope she recovers swiftly.

So sorry to hear about your friend's misfortunes. I understand your frustration and anger over this grave injustice but please remember to take care of yourself. I am sure she would want you to be well. 

Good luck locking up the hatred within yourself. With this situation, on my account, those wicked wrong-doer should have  poles up their @ss!

last year one of my childhood friend also had an accident with motocycle, plus both of her parents were deceased at the same year. It was very rough for her.

She however was lucky though, has got lots of relatives who cared for her. She rang me and told me the story, it was very shocking how the police handles accidents in Srok Khmer.

I guess, if you are really worried, it's best to ask someone you can trust to look after her. Your friend injuries sound very serious to me, having a good carer would spead up the recovery. I hate to say this, but like many khmers in the country, they would send the patient to Vietnam for medical treatments.

If you are not ready to go back to Uni, it's maybe better to withdraw for this semester and re-enrol in 2nd semester. This would allow you the time to settle ( but dont put it as an excuse).

I wouldn't bury myself with alcohol, it's too cost and too unhealthy.

Thanks all. I truly appreciated the comments.