Forget-me-nots is a little flower with five blue petals surrounded by a little yellow center. Many of my friends have asked me why this unspectacular flower is so special to me. Why does this flower mean so much to me that all flowers pale in comparison.... This is my story.
Many years ago, my family moved from New Mexico to Oregon. I started school and was not able to make any friends because I was very shy and not talkative at all. My friends were my siblings and my cousins. Our family moved again and I started another school thats where I met my three greatest friends. Adrienne, Mae and Troy. They are all very dear to me but Troy was a little older than all of us and he and I lived near each other.
We were pretty inseperable, he was the coolest person I knew. He taught me how to rollerskate,climb trees, ride my bike, and how to be a good person. One day we were walking in the park he hands me a bunch of little blue flowers... Troy says this is for you , they're called forget-me-nots. I wanted you to have them so you wont forget me when we move away... Our family moved right after his family did. That was when I was ten years old.
It was my Sophomore year in high school , NIkki's boyfriend had a rugby game so she invited me to come along to keep her company. I was sitting next to her and she literally pulls my arm out of its socket to point out this guy that walks onto the field.... Her first remark was who is that hot guy, I absentmindedly replied "Oh, that's Troy".
After the game, Craig comes by and tells us that his friend is going to come along so I wont feel like a third wheel. In walks Troy, it was like we were never apart, the conversations was flowing. Every little thing I liked or disliked was remembered. It was so wonderful to have a friend to talk to and to be on your side no matter what. We started seeing each other then.
In Fall Troy went to college and we were apart once again. He made it a point to come visit every other weekend just so i wont forget him.. During Spring break a very bad thing happened to me that I would never wish on any female, You always hear it in the news or think that something like that could never happen to you but it did. It was a horror story come to life , a Thai movie come true. I was very scared and wanted to kill myself many times.. I paged Troy(since that was the in thing at the time) to call me back... When Troy called I could not stop crying and could not really form a sentence..
Troy told me to wait where I was and that he will be there as soon as he can. Its about a two hour drive from his college to where i was. While I was waiting for him there was many ambulances and fire trucks driving pass me... I walked over to check things out, there in the street was Troy's red bmw Troy was thrown out of his car because some guy ran a red light. My dearest friend and the person I cared for the most died because I told him I was almost raped by a crazy suitor. It was because of me he died. I hated myself more than anyone can imagine.
After his memorial, his parents took me aside and gave me a small mahogany box filled with things he kept. They wanted me to have it and also to let me know that it was not my fault he is gone. His mom told me that I should never blame myself for this and that if things were reversed I would do just the same thing. No one in my family knows that Troy is dead or the reason he died. I kept that close to my heart for many years and will forever love forget-me-nots. The first flower given to me and the flowers that surround his tombstone.
I am sorry if this story saddens you, I just wanted to let you know that it is better to love someone for a very short time than to have never met that someone and experience what love is....
